Painstaking

The last that I'm remembering was laying in this place
To find myself in daylight with morning at my face
You must have walked away and I'm a loss for losing

Painstaking, ending, thinking but nothing
Conquering, closing in, distancing from knowing
Sat up without memory and passers by they gave
To settle in and make this home, but all I want is to live
And you must have walked away, I'm a loss still losing

I recognize my part in this
I may have fought you with my fists
Regardless what the answer is
How could you, how could you?