Chorus For Destruction

I set a course for destruction
when I chose to give myself away
and I'm afraid to change what I've already started
but I can't find another way
and so I sit and stare out the window
and wonder
will I ever amount to anything?

At least nowhere is somewhere
I just think too much

I'm bored out of my mind
there's nothing much to do here
I sit around all day and wish that I was somewhere else
and if I had a purpose
I don't know what I'd do with it
I'm so used to this

I feel the pressures of the answers to the questions in my head
I know they'll be there
how do I get back to my state of my mind
my appetite for life is gone
right now I don't care

I'm gonna give it away
it's ok