I set a course for destruction when I chose to give myself away and I'm afraid to change what I've already started but I can't find another way and so I sit and stare out the window and wonder will I ever amount to anything? At least nowhere is somewhere I just think too much I'm bored out of my mind there's nothing much to do here I sit around all day and wish that I was somewhere else and if I had a purpose I don't know what I'd do with it I'm so used to this I feel the pressures of the answers to the questions in my head I know they'll be there how do I get back to my state of my mind my appetite for life is gone right now I don't care I'm gonna give it away it's ok