Hardmode

It's hard to say the girl I love is gone
The world doesn't deserve what she woulda sung
Got doctors in my brain diggin through my skull
And now it feels like all my beauty's gone

All I ever wanted was a hit song
Buy a house for my parents but that might be all gone
Everyone's gathered 'roud crying something went wrong
There's a tumor in my brain but it's not as bad as when I lost love

It's like when God build me up, he said
This life is gonna be too hard to live
Grew up poor in the Bronx with a mother who only needs more
Give her more, God

Said I would have had a chance to get ahead
But I'd be hanging on by a thread
Fake friends, dark times, dead ends

God put my life on hard mode
God put my life on hard mode
God put my life on hard mode

When I was young they screwed me over for my last dimes
I ran some great successes into land mines
And grief is something no one wants to help ride
They saw how hard it really was and then they slide

Jumping out of moving cars cut scars across my arm
I made it pretty far that's just not far enough
I can't breathe when I see singers singing on TV
That should be my baby
That's bout the time I'm drinking
Yeah, yeah, yeah

It's like when God build me up, he said
I'll give him strength for the life ahead
I'm okay, dispite all of this pain or the hole in my brain
I'm still standing

Yeah, I always pray for a break
And I've almost been at heaven's gates
How much more can I take

God put my life on hard mode
God put my life on hard mode
God put my life on hard mode

I will not die, but live
And proclaim what God did
God put my life on hard mode
I will not die, but live

And proclaim what God did
God put my life on hard mode
God put my life on hard mode
God put my life on hard mode