Self Loathing

Am I living in hell?
My whole world collapsed
Beaten but not broken
I still felt the aftermath
Nothing will ever go right
So why should I try?

Locked in a bind through the hands of time
This is my own demise

You ever get the feeling that everything you do in your whole life is one big crock of shit?!
Growing up I never thought it would come to this
Sometimes I wake up and don't want to deal with it
I find the burning flame deep in my soul
So long as the fire burns I keep my control
My fuse is running and I'm close to the edge
I'll fight this fucking world and have my revenge

Have my revenge

I can't even look at myself
Something's gotta give
No path to follow
I have no incentive
Where there's a will, there's a fucking way
This battered soul has seen better days

Pressure just makes me stronger
It drives me hate
I won't take your shitty anymore, kid
I'll spit in your face