On Again / Off Again

So long i lived here alone in this heart of jade
Clutching to you
Afraid to be educated if i awake
Will it be too late

Light up and see the signs all around
A dying ember glows
Aching for you to follow

So long the weight upon you
How dignified you pray
Voice inspired by fear of nothing
Inside the stone and all alone
Now tempted to dismay

Willing to sacrifice comfort lies
As night turns into day

On again (left outside - riding a wave)
No one knows how long it's been
Don't want to be saved from
Riding this wave ashore

One moment of rest here at the crest, then we fall...

Knowing is not enough to win
Diastole of time breathing in
To reverse again and again
A fire rekindled but dare i believe again
Trusting in you
Afraid to be devastated
Must i await what lust will recreate

Loving to hate what can never change
Hating to love what can't remain

Off again (lost inside - riding a wave)
No one knows what might have been
Don't want to be saved from
Riding this wave ashore

Dance until we exhaust
Life unlived and lost