Last October

I spent the end of last october
Crying on your shoulder.
I'll just never win.
We're going through this,
I'm not even there. I'm never there
My mind, it could use a little peace and quiet.
My soul wouldn't mind a warm place to hide

My ears are red and sore
From always standing in the snow.
My lungs need air
I spent it on all the "thanks yous" and "goodbyes."
I'm scared. I'm helpless. I'm shaking. I'm weak
My bones, I feel them breaking
I'm tired of losing against me
I'm lost. I can't win

My tongue is bleeding
Red from all the things I can't say
My hands are clawing at the dirt to dig up anything
I can't say I didn't wish for this before
I'm ashamed. I don't deserve to be here anymore
I'm scared. I'm helpless. I'm shaking. I'm weak
My bones, I feel them breaking
I'm tired of losing against me
I'm lost. I can't win