A Godless Throne

Survivor's guilt
What did I wish for?
I never knew the cost
All these years on
It's not wasted on me
But I never know what I have till it's gone

I'm deaf to your words
I'm blind to your actions
Couldn't sense the change in the air
Or see the lights refractions

I don't know where I belong

Why did I beg
Wallowed in my own regrets
Absorbed in my petulance
Ungrateful as ever
No matter how hard I try
I know I'm not worthy

I don't know where I belong
But I feel like I've done wrong

Guilt

A godless throne
I sat and wondered why I'm still here
On this soil we lay our bodies down forever
And I'll be waiting for the ground to swallow me
Only to close my eyes
And not see that it has taken you