The room is spinning, as the world becomes clear I have no idea, how I ended up here The house is trashed, but it's not mine I'm surrounded by strangers, and empty bottles of wine I struggle recalling the events of last night Piecing together, praying I'm right I've been here before, and I said it then This is the last time, never again This time is different This time I mean it This time I'll say it Until I believe it This time I'm serious This time I swear This time I promise That I'm aware That I can't keep going, pretending I'm fine I know I was lucky This time It didn't take long, for those words to fade In a hospital bed, is where I lay Listening to the doctor, and what could have been As I try to clean up, this mess I'm in I struggle recalling the events of last night The winding road, and colored flashing lights I've been here before, and said it then God this is the last time, please never again This time is different This time I mean it This time I'll say it Until I believe it This time I'm serious This time I swear This time I admit I'm a little scared Because I can't keep going, pretending I'm fine I know I was lucky This time But life can be cruel, it can be so unkind I try to stay true, and keep walking that line But all I see is an endless stream Of broken bottles and shattered dreams That was three hundred sixty-four days ago I stand here, but I've got a ways to go But in all that time I haven't touched a glass I made a vow and I'll make it last This time feels different This time I mean it I made a promise This time I'll keep it This time I'm serious This time I swear That I'm gonna make it If I've got a prayer And I'm not going back I've made up my mind I'm making a change This time I'm gonna make it This time