Kinda Numb

Not gonna lie, my chest is tighter than before
Yeah it was me, but why am I lying on the floor?
I never thought I'd be the one to give it up
But then I felt too much then didn't feel enough

And I know that my head's been racing
I don't do well with replacing
Kinda jealous, kinda faking all
And the thought of you with someone else
Made me wanna prove myself
By putting up another stupid wall

So I'm sorry if I'm kinda mad
It's maybe cuz I cared
I thought it wouldn't hurt me bad
But maybe I was scared
And I've been doing bigger things
But you're still everywhere
It's not fair

Something bout you makes me go insane
And there's something making that okay
Yeah I know I shouldn't feel this way
But maybe you feel the same?

Not gonna lie, I know that I messed it all up
I should have tried but I find it so hard to trust
So many lies, I guess I've gotten sorta numb
Wish I could explain why my heart's been acting dumb

And I know that my head's been racing
I don't do well with replacing
Kinda jealous, kinda faking all
And the thought of you with someone else
Made me wanna prove myself
By putting up another stupid wall

So I'm sorry if I'm kinda mad
It's maybe cuz I cared
I thought it wouldn't hurt me bad
But maybe I was scared
And I've been doing bigger things
But you're still everywhere
It's not fair

Something bout you makes me go insane
And there's something making that okay
Yeah I know I shouldn't feel this way
But maybe you feel the same?