Masque

Don't think you fucking know me
You will never feel the way I do!
You're so fucking ignorant, clueless
This pain sinks way deeper than you could ever fucking know
I guess I better throw it on!

Can't stand the feel of my skin
If no-one sees me no-one opens up the door to let me in
And that's the way that I would like it to stay
No fucking conversation, please fuck off and leave me to my slow decay
Cause I don't want to feel like you, like you don't wanna feel like me
Wasting my energy to tell you all I'm a-ok
Why even bother though when no-one even gives a shit?
Show my teeth, live with it? Wear the mask, fuck that shit!

I feel so damn vulnerable wish that I could fake
Fake this shit like the rest of you fucks!
Wish I could make you feel a fraction of the pain I feel
Neurotically damaged
I don't know who I am hiding from anymore
Is it me? Is it you? Man I don't fucking know

All I know, one day I think I'll take this way too far
Say fuck em all, grab some shit and mow them all down
I can't help it
I need help to process all this trauma that I spit out
Always looking for a cop out like it isn't fucking my fault
Tell me where to point the finger laugh it off like it's a joke
But it's me the fucking joke
But it's me the fucking joke!

Help me! Help me!
Help me to decipher this encrypted sick neurology
Help me to get out of me!
I'm done pretending my life is worth living
Say things
Regret them
Rinse and repeat

Shit!

I don't know who I am hiding from anymore
Is it me? Is it you? Man, I don't fucking know
All I know
One day I'm going to take this way too far
Fuck 'em all, fuck 'em all, fuck 'em all!
I don't know who I am hiding from anymore
It's myself, it's myself, looking at my life from down below
Pick up the pieces from this filthy floor
Guess I'm back, guess I'm back, back where I belong
Mask off