RLS

I'll fail myself just one more time
Fuck!

I'll fail myself just one more time
So I crush another pill and sail to heaven
I don't feel like I wanna feel alive again
Just numb the pain and forget I'm not dead

Eyes closed, never asleep
Itching my skin can't believe this is me
Wasting away like I've wasted my time
Always pushing away those who value my life

(Hey)
I just don't feel right sometimes
I don't feel safe so I choose to spend another night on my own
(Ahh)

Didn't think that you'd ever get it
Never felt ok so I said man fuck it
Put my neck on the line kept my head in the clouds and I saw that the weather was still shit
And now I'm up here fucked all alone
Just how I wanted to be, I'm alone
So I crawl to the bathroom, it's me in the mirror, I ask myself 'who the fuck is this? '
Fuck!

You've failed yourself just one more time
Dropped another pill and sailed to heaven
I don't feel like I'll ever be alive again
Just numb the pain and forget I'm not dead

When what happens at home stays at home
Then you know there is no-one to see if your body is cold
And your lips are as blue as your soul
If your tongue is sunk in at the back of your throat
If the spasms were fun, if there's bile on the rug
If there's anything you could have done
All these questions I've asked myself over and over
Oh fuck this shit pass me the gun, I'm so done

I think it's time to kick this shit
I think I need out of this mess
But I know that I'll miss all the warmth
And the itch and the break from the stress
But one last time I roll the dice
Gamble again with my fucking life
I know that I've lost and I'll lose again
Lose again and again and again

I'll fail myself just one more time
So I crush another pill and sail to heaven
I don't feel like I wanna feel alive again
Just numb the pain and forget I'm not dead

I'll fail myself just one more time
So I crush another pill and sail to heaven
I don't feel like I wanna feel alive again
Just numb the pain and forget I'm not dead