Weak

I never broke my number one rule
But last night I dreamt of you, yeah
The shit we did it was way out of line
And now I think about it all the time
And now whenever I look at you
I think of all the things we'll never do
If I was stronger when it came to sin
I'd wish I never had that dream again

But I'm weak
So I pray to god take or leave my soul to keep
Cause I ain't got no soul, just broken dreams and bloodstained sheets
And ain't a god in heaven that'll ever mean shit to me
And without her kiss I fear I'll never get a goodnight's sleep

Another night with nothing much to do
As the sadness turns to sickness in my lonely room
Beating myself up cause I'm missing you
Johnny's on the phone he says let's get a brew
Well another old bar won't be nothing new
But it beats beating my brain in just turning the screw
Checking my pockets but my money's spent
And if I go out I won't make the rent

But I'm weak
So I pray to god take or leave my soul to keep
Cause I ain't got no soul, just broken dreams and bloodstained sheets
And ain't a god in heaven that'll ever mean shit to me
And without her kiss I fear I'll never get a goodnight's sleep

I've been beaten many times before
But I still flash this crooked smile
I guess I really shouldn't complain
I guess I've been blessed all the while
Too many times I've thrown a fist
When I probably should've turned a check
They look at me like I'm a strong man
But I'm two feet tall, yeah I'm nothing at all

I'm fucking weak
So I pray to god take or leave my soul to keep
Cause I ain't got no soul, just broken dreams and bloodstained sheets
And ain't a god in heaven that'll ever mean shit to me
And without her kiss I fear I'll never get a goodnight's sleep