Telluride

Do you tell him everything you told me
As you lie beneath the pine cones, sweating?
Does he count the times you breathe?
Is your arm stretched across his stomach
Naked skin against your hand
As you smoke one thousand cigarettes
And forget me once again?

Do you reach your hand below your navel?
Do you feel familiar scars?
Some are heavier than others
From bowry street and bars
To first snows in asheville
Getting groceries in the cold
And a hundred camel lights between here and colorado

You were always mine
It's been such a long time
I've kept you waiting

Late at night I hear you crying
You know that I don't sleep
I'm pacing quietly above you
And I'm drying off your cheek
You might think that you don't know me
But you haven't kept me waiting
You always were my daughter even when you said you hated me
The clock, it ticks in circles
It stays in perfect time
I've counted every single hair
You were always mine

Farther than my eyes could see
Farther than my feet could carry me
Farther than my arms could reach
Oh, god, am I so weak?