Blind Ambition

I can see her, through the white of the snow
That she lined up for me on the mirror
The good ones will pick you up when you're down and out
I miss L.A. like a fever
I miss driving around smoking reefer
Tell my friends that I'll make my way out again
And I don't have to explain myself to them
I don't have to run them through the thought process
Of where my blind ambition stems

They just want to see me for who I am
For who I'm gonna be
So I ask myself, how come I'm so far away from it?
How come the water tastes like wine but I feel so far away from it?

I let the shivers run right down my spine
For a second, yeah, I feel okay from the art I make
But it comes with blood and it takes me away
Can you calm me down yet?
Can you pull me back to the dirt I came out of?

It's what's in my heart again
It's what's in my heart again
It's what's in my heart again
It's what's in my heart again

But it hurts like hell when you know yourself
'Cause I feel too much
God I really wanna love 'cause I'm done with hate
I just need some drugs and a house on the hill
Where the Malibu line is
That's where my time was spent
That's where every drive I ever drive in my mind ends
That's why I'm diggin' here

And after all the parties end with empty hands
I wanna know that I tried it
She said you gotta realize it
And fuckin' fight 'til you're dying
I remember the time spent, and the winds all pushed me home

It's what's in my heart again
It's what's in my heart again
It's what's in my heart again
It's what's in my heart again