A Song About You and Me and Christmas

It's Christmas night
and I'm left all alone
I miss the good days we lived
such a pity now they're gone
And I was sitting on the staircase
thinking about how long must we
try before we can reach what we need

It's still Christmas night
I'm pretending everything's alright
to all the unknown relatives
and nothing is the same
Last year we blew out the candles
together
You swore you'd be here for Christmas
forever
but look at us now

I want to hate Christmas
but Christmas reminds me of you
and how could I ever hate you?
I'd like to say this night
I'm sure I'll make it through
how can I make it through?

One minute to midnight
close your eyes and see the lights
Could you take it all away,
see the pain,
as you fade?
I'm lying
I never meant to make you cry
I never wanted to lie
stay outside
stay tonight

I want to hate Christmas
but Christmas reminds me of you
and how could I ever hate you?
I'd like to say this night
I'm sure I'll make it through
how can I make it through?

And how could I ever hate you?
How could I ever hate you?
I never hated you

Thirty seconds to midnight
I'm still waiting outside
will you come tonight?
End this suffering tonight

I won't hate Christmas
I won't ever hate you
how could I ever hate you?
I'd like to say this night
I'm sure I'll make it through
how can I make it through?

I'll make it through
I see you coming through the crowd
just say it loud
kneel to the ground
just be around
don't you leave me now just five seconds now