This song has a real summer 1983 vibe
Very specific, actually
I'll stop talkin' now 'cause you're probably already annoyed with me talkin' so much, so let's begin!
Hmm-hmm, okay
I know it might seem impossible
But now it's time for me to be responsible
I've always looked at you in a certain way
I counted every single day
I know when your birthday is
I know your full name
I know your hobbies
And you don't even know I exist
I don't have principles to live by
I've never said goodbye
'Cause I was always ashamed that you hated me
I never felt free
I was always afraid of lookin' skinny
I was always afraid somethin' would go wrong
I always had an uncertainty 'bout who I was made for
I loved you since I was four
There were times when I just gave up on livin'
I never went to a Thanksgivin'
I thought about telling you everythin'
But I was always ashamed 'cause I was a child
The nights were difficult, insomnia was common
But tell me
Do you care about my feelings
Or would you prefer I commit suicide?
I was always afraid of lookin' skinny (do you care?)
I was always afraid somethin' would go wrong
I always had an uncertainty 'bout what I was made for
I loved you since I was four
So, good things don't last
And life goes by so fast
And I never said what was best
And this never went beyond a test
I love doing this, makin' a fun song with heavy lyrics
I was always afraid of lookin' skinny
I was always afraid somethin' would go wrong
I always had an uncertainty 'bout what I was made for
I loved you since I was four