Afflicted

Pull me out before I drown
Raise me up to higher ground
Turn around, touch the clouds
Help me out, I'm done with falling down
There is a price to pay for being me
Crossed the line then realized
I'm dying more each time
These pills I take spare me one more day
To enjoy shit I'm throwing away...away
Right down the fucking drain

Feeling like it's sinking in
I am what the fuck I am
Denial is my closest friend
These wounds I cannot mend

My finger prints leave a trace
A piece of me you can't erase
No fear of what you might think
No fear of anything
I'm happy with the mess that I've made
And my mistakes
I'll take them with me to my grave...to my grave

It's hiding inside me just waiting
I'm not the one you're after
Leave me be

I am never there
When you call on me to share
This pain I have to bear
I've looked around and you weren't there

I'm comfortable inside my skin
I found a place you can't get in
You always said you needed me
But I'm not the man you want me to be
Go away there's the door
Casualty of my internal war
Here I am one more time
Standing at the end of the line
This time my patience left be