My Love For You (Unreleased)

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[?] to the black roses crackin' the concrete
I love you and I miss you so much

My love for you
Is like a angel flyin' through the sky, like a bird in the winter
And your love for me
Is so deep and sorta like a black rose crackin' the cement
My love for you
Lives on like the memory of Aaliyah singin' a last song
And your love for me
Will never die, like a black child strugglin' the ghetto to survive

My heart goes out to the beautiful woman that raised me
Twenty years after the Watts riots, early 80s
Pops on drugs, moms couldn't take me in
Had a daughter, already said she was too young to feed another baby and
Shit got crazy, then two years came and went
Baby's just growin' away, we can't even pay the rent, no hot water
I reminisce tears runnin' down my face as I hold my daughter
You spent years by the fire place
I was in the garden, every Sunday at the church
Bible study at the Carters, I was hard head
Back then I was sellin' crack
When your hard-earned money paid for basketball practice
Always at the game on time, yellin' at the coaches
Wondering why your baby boy's sittin' on the pine
Even though life gets hard sometimes, I keep my head up
And I can make the Sun shine in just one rhyme
Walk with me

My love for you
Is like a angel flyin' through the sky, like a bird in the winter
And your love for me
Is so deep and sorta like a black rose crackin' the cement
My love for you
Lives on like the memory of Aaliyah singin' a last song
And your love for me
Will never die, like a black child strugglin' the ghetto to survive

In and outta lanes in that 57 Lincoln Continental
Pedal to the floor, lookin' for the highway to Heaven
Remember when your baby boy was seven?
We had good times like I was Jay Jay and you was Fleur, the Evans
I should have listened to the reverend
Now I drain my pain in this forty ounce and these born-ass records
Disrespectin' your house, livin' reckless, look at me
Inside your jewelry box, 'bout to pawn your necklace
Every night you were in the window, lookin'
But what you do when your grandson's crooked and he too old for whoopin'?
Used to tell me I was smarter than that
Took me down to the Compton, swapt me, bought my first starter hat
Pulled over, Raider jacket to match a pair of Levi's
A number 8 Jordans' with the all black straps
When you died, my soul cracked, can I get a soul clap?
I'm walkin' without a heart, can somebody hold that?

My love for you
Is like a angel flyin' through the sky, like a bird in the winter
And your love for me
Is so deep and sorta like a black rose crackin' the cement
My love for you
Lives on like the memory of Aaliyah singin' a last song
And your love for me
Will never die, like a black child strugglin' the ghetto to survive

I gotta a lot of things I wanna ask the Lord
Like why I can't see my grandmother face no more
And why I can't seem to live without her
And if I pray, could He send her back to me one day?
'Cause Heaven too crowded
Every time I think about it, I'm missin' your smile, can barely cope
My angel is gone, I'm heartbroke
Drownin' in my own tears, somebody throw me a rope
Or spread my wings so I can fly, I'm ready to die
Might cry, but I'm still a man
Might be a man, but I still cry
Big mama, my angel in the sky
If you wanna feel my pain, then close your eyes
Hold your breath, now that's too close to death
Open your eyes, see the light now
And if you love your grandmother like I love mine
Go tell her right now, I know how this might sound
But my plan is to show you that I understand
You are appreciated

My love for you
Is like a angel flyin' through the sky, like a bird in the winter
And your love for me
Is so deep and sorta like a black rose crackin' the cement
My love for you
Lives on like the memory of Aaliyah singin' a last song
And your love for me
Will never die