A Clean, Well-Lighted Place

It's not all just black and white anymore
there's that ugly shade of grey
Sometimes I wish I didn't have a heart and a soul
Because there's no risk in not hurting at all
Maybe then my eyes wouldn't grow so old
I think its just my nature to realize the evil in everything and everyone
I envy those who sing a song much more sincere than mine
No one will ever give a shit about a kid
with fear in his heart and hope in his eyes

I guess that's how it is
life isn't a fairy tail, and if it were, I'd fuck it up
I'm running backwards in a race I cannot win
I lost my conscience long ago
I'm in this shit for myself
I've found that a life worth living is one
where everyone else is content
and you're fucking miserable
So take your best shot
And then fail because from the start
you're not good enough