Ghost Party

Crowds around me but I feel the same
Lights in my face but they burn like flame
Trying to escape what I can't explain
Running from the noise in my own brain
TV in my house always plays one chain
Talking 'bout the ways you can heal the pain
Static in the room like a cold drain
Feels like everything circles back again
People all around, but I dissociate
Heartbeat in my chest goin' over rate
Tryna keep it cool but I can't translate
Every single thought that I can't create
That I can't create

I sip another drink but it don't hit right
Feels like I'm pretending through the whole damn night
Laughing with a crowd that's far too bright
Hiding every truth that's out of sight (out of sight)
Bodies moving close but I'm miles away
Thinking 'bout the things I never say
Smiling at the ground so they don't see me away
Hoping no one asks if I'm okay

I'm dancing in a crowded room
But I'm fading like a ghost in bloom

Hands up in the air but I feel the weight
Everyone around moving at one rate
Wish I could align but it's far too late
Caught between the fear and the pressure plate

Shadows on the floor keep me company
Echoes of my thoughts tryna slowed me
Smiling for the crowd so they won't agree
That I'm slipping underneath quietly

I'm dancing (hands up in the air but I feel the weight)
In a crowded room (everyone around moving at one rate)
But I'm fading (is a new life, is a new life)
Like a ghost in bloom

I keep walking through the night just to feel the ground
I keep walking through the night just to feel the ground

I keep walking through the night just to feel the ground
Fake energy in my voice so I don't break down
Every laugh around me feels like background sound
And my smile's just a mask that I stitched too loud

All these conversations pull me out of place
Everybody dancing while I hide my face
Trying not to crumble under all this weight
Hoping no one sees the cracks I can't erase

Hoping no one sees the cracks I can't erase
'Cause I've been stitching up the silence just to fill the space
Every step that I take feels like I'm out of place
Like I'm running from a life I never learned to face

I'm dancing in a crowded room (in a crowded room I fade)
But I'm fading like a ghost in bloom

Like a ghost in bloom
Like a ghost in bloom