Sick Cycle

Now I'm on my last breath
Doesn't make it easier to start over
When there's nothing left here but regret
I'm still going through the motions in my head
Let's pretend you're dead

Everyone looks relieved
Does anyone feel like me?
Everyone gets deceived
Endless sick cycle

Everyone gets to breathe
Happiness make believe
It's like pulling teeth
Endlessly

Takes time to make go away
Push it back and let it decay
Hearts never seem to escape disarray
Lies are what scream in my head
Trying to pretend that you're dead
Words that were best left unsaid were still said

Now I'm on my first death
Doesn't make it easier to trust myself
Knowing everything I said was meant for you
Inconsistent with repent
Let's pretend you're dead

Everyone's disbelief
Everyone looks at me
Have I failed to see
Hindsight's killing me

Everyone gets to breathe
Happiness make believe
It's like pulling teeth
Hopelessly