One I Can't Ignore

Did I not hold tight enough
I was never good at starting this stuff
You announce in theory class you and him were so
I had to lie and pretend I let go

I’m in bed clutching my sides
Wishing that these very hands weren't mine
He’s the only one I ever loved
You just came along and swept it up

Chest hollowed out
I guess I'll move south
I’d rather go blind than see him walk away with you
I look from afar
I'm in my own car
I don't want anything from you

You left me thinking I'm not what he sees
You don't know what I went through for no guarantees
Strange Donnie Darko thing apple of my eye
You made me hope that what I feel for him would die

I said I'd stay away as the bad guy in your book
When all the bad guy had done is put her coat upon the hook
You made me think that what we had was through
I’d rather go blind than see him walk away with you

Chest hollowed out
I guess I'll go south
I’d rather go blind than see him walk away with you
I look from afar
In my own car
I don't want anything from you

I hate that you kissed him
I hate that you took him
I hate that you made him think that was love
I hate that you held him
I hate that you called him
I hate that you’re a passenger in his car
I hate that you told him
I hate the times you shared
I hate that you said love
I hate that you asked him
I hate that you touched him
I hate that you're in polaroids left by the door

I don’t hate many things but there’s one thing for sure
The thing I feel for him is one I can’t ignore
I don’t hate many things but there’s one thing for sure
The thing I feel for him is one I can’t ignore