Agnosia

Dark times ahead
Shatter the euphoria I tried to feel again
It ain't rational
It ain't fair
All I need is some compassion

That you refuse to give
Wearing misery like fashion
Still you fail to see
All my burdens and aggression
That are slumbering deep in me
I am reaching out to you

I am exposing myself
They say: Show who you really are
And you'll get what you crave
I am better, no, I feel sore
Can't you see that I am suffering more?
I don't long for progression
I've started to embrace the sorrow

These dark rings beneath my eyes
Are the finest jewelry in these obscure times
Reflections always been physics to me
Can't comprehend doubt
Thanks to my apathy
See through my eyes, you will start to feel
That nothing I complain about is real

Panic erodes what is left of me
I am a hollow shell
Driven by plain greed
It's not that I am unaware
Of what I am doing here
I'll cut out every piece of me

To offer it to you
Don't you think it is beautiful?
The art of destroying my soul
This endless pain seems to be my eternal fate
I am the chosen one

Doomed to forever bathe in my self-made hate
It's that repeating feel
The beauty in this lone walk
Deafness as a safe space for my intrusive thoughts
Watch me fall

Are they talking 'bout me
Did I make them think
Or is it just that poisoned blood in my veins
Reflections always been physics to me
See through my eyes, you will start to feel
That nothing I complain about

Reflections always been physics to me
Can't comprehend doubt
Thanks to my apathy
See through my eyes, you will start to feel
That nothing I complain about is real