Control

Pressure consumes me acceptance alludes me. Is this how you want me to be?
Pain and affliction from all these addictions, but all I can see is the crowd
I run from disease but destruction is easy when it's all I know
I drink myself into so pain I can harness have I lost my soul?

I've got this poison filling me
It drags me down
But oh I love the way it tastes
Cause it's straight from hell
You kill me, you kill me
With every lie that you feed
You think you've got a hold on me
But I'm in control of me

I found true love when I dove into bottles
And that's all that you had to give
In my eyes you gave me all that I needed
All that I needed to live
Another line another fight another blackout night
I live in fear of the things that I love
Banished into the darkness with wounds I am tarnished
I'm lost and I need an escape

I've got this poison filling me
It drags me down
But oh I love the way it tastes
Cause it's straight from +hell
You kill me, you kill me
With every lie that you feed
You think you've got a hold on me
But I'm in control of me