I'm Learning (feat. IVEY.H)

I fold my heart like a letter I'll never send
Read it alone, then I start again
I rehearse love in a silent room
But freeze when it's real and you step too soon

I've been living in a place between yes and no
Every dream feels close, but I move too slow
If I reach for you, will the truth show through?
Or will I ruin the best thing I never knew?

L don't trust the light when it finds my face
I'm scared of the love, I don't think I deserve to take

I don't want to be lonely
But I don't know how to be close
I'm scared if you hold me
You'll feel what I hate the most
I want you to know me
While I'm learning to be me
I'm breaking the silence slowly
And choosing to believe in me

I'm learning. I'm learning
How to let love stay
I'm learning. I'm learning
Not to run away

I'm measuring my worth in the gaps I see
All the things I was almost brave enough to be
I chase perfection just to feel safe
I didn't blame my fear when I hesitate

I hear your voice and my chest goes tight
Like love is a test I failed tonight
How I want to believe I could let you stay
But I've been more reason to walk away

If I let you in, will you stay when you see?
I'll still learning how to be me

I don't want to be lonely
But I don't know how to be close
I'm scared if you hold me
You'll feel what I hate the most
I want you to know me
While I'm learning to be me
I'm breaking the silence slowly
And choosing to believe in me

I'm learning. I'm learning
How to let love stay
I'm learning. I'm learning
Not to run away

I'm tired of feeling the girl I am
Like loving me was never the plan
If I wait much longer, I'll disappear
Still full of love, but ruled by feel

So if I fall, let it be out loud
Not in my head, not lost in the crowd
I'd rather be real than perfectly safe
I'd rather be broken and never be brave

I don't want to be lonely
I don't want to hide anymore
If you see right through me
I'll still be standing at the door
I want you to know me
While I'm learning to be me
I'm breaking the silence slowly
And choosing to believe in me

I'm learning. I'm learning
How to let love stay
I'm learning. I'm learning
Not to run away