Fixed What I Could

I grew in walls that whispered prayers
Innocent heart in borrowed layers
Clocks stood still in sacred air
But no one moved
No one dared
Bodies falling, just wind, they'd say
But I felt the weight they pushed away
Dad walked nights on restless feet
Promised he'd return before morning's beat

I faked my sleep, counted each sound
Every lock turning slow and round
That's when I learned beneath that roof
A kept promise outlives proof

I couldn't fix the cracks back home
So I fixed what I could alone
Wires and circuits in my room
Tiny sparks against the gloom
Video games spread on the floor
Building worlds I could restore

If I rewired what I could see
Maybe I'd rewire what's wrong in me
Concrete stage, neon light
Voice shaking but holding tight
Perfume hiding broken walls
Faith painted over empty halls
Skating fast just to outrun
The quiet war I'd never won

The farther I drifted from who I knew
The louder the silence grew

Ceilings cracked, tension high
I learned too young not to cry
Small shoulders learning how to brace
Holding storms behind my face
And when the city dimmed its tone
I felt something I'd never known

I'll fix what I can
I'll hold it tight!
I'll build my world out of wires and light!
If I can control the sound
Maybe I won't drown
If I keep my hands busy
Maybe my heart won't speak
I'll fix what I can
But I can't fix me

The farther I ran from the echo inside
The louder it stayed