Only My Ghost

It still calls my name
Like nothing changed
But everything did

Last drink
Last call
Lights on the wall
Your shadow in the doorway
Like you never left at all

Too proud, too young
Too scared to choose
I said I needed freedom
But freedom was losing you

When life gave me a moment
I thought I had time
Now every second echoes
With your hand not holding mine

I fought for what I wanted
But I let go of what I needed

I fought for the fire
Now I'm burned by the flame
I ran from forever
Now I'm haunted by your name

I could be someone
Maybe I almost was
But every road I'm walking
Leads me back to us

Still hollow
Still close
Still hearing
Only my ghost

Midnights, headlights
Your voice in rewind
Every what if hits me
Like it's right on time

I'm not chasing forgiveness
I'm not asking you to stay
But the ghost of our past
Won't fade away

Every love after you
Feels rehearsed
Not real
Like I traded something golden
For something I can't feel

If the past is just a memory
Why does it breathe when I'm alone?

I fought for the fire
Now I'm drowning in smoke
I broke something perfect
And I carry the weight

I could be someone
More than who I've been
But every time I move on
You're moving back in

Still hollow
Still close
Still haunted
By only my ghost

You said forever
I said not yet
You said don't let go
And that's what I regret most
I thought I had time

I fought for the fire
But I let it burn out
Now silence is louder
Than all of our shouts

I could be someone
If I let you go
But loving your memory
Is all that I know

Still hollow
Still close
Still living
With only my ghost