Lust

So here I go again to make the same mistake
I click the button, and it slowly loads the page
I reassure myself that she will satisfy my lust
But impersonal relationships will never be enough (never be enough!)

I've never felt more trapped in my life
My sins, a bottomless pit that keeps expanding over time
And yet I'll jump right in, thinking I'll come out fine
But instead I end up laying my manhood on the line

It's hard to be pure when the alternative seems beautiful
And men would rather give into their wants than be bold
We know it's hurting families, we know it murders souls
We know it's killing us, but no one wants to speak up

(Overload-, I need some clarity!)
I'd never thought I'd get this far away
These eyes were never meant to be enslaved
Why would I fight if I'm losing anyway?
What will it take? (Don't let me stay here)

I try to justify it all, but I know it's wrong
This conviction is deep, but my desires are strong
Will I ever overcome this mayhem? (Will I understand?)
(You are my father's daughter! You are my brother's sister!)

If I were to be as blunt as possible
If I told you what we're really thinking
For the sake of men everywhere
Would you get how sick we are?

Oh, I like undressing girls with my eyes
I like imagining I took her home, pretending she's my wife
Trying to justify the issue that's destroying my life
All I think about is sex in any form I can find

It's scary how I often feel so far from grace
It's inescapable temptation, and my thoughts, they race
I'm ashamed of the ideas that my mind creates
Are you ashamed that you can relate?

Because these pornography addictions make a billion-dollar business
Since we're all too weak to fight our urges
We've been telling women that they're merely entertainment and otherwise just useless
There must be more to life and love than lusting over images

So where do I put God in all of this?
I claim my God is sovereign
But I'm only giving in to the power of my flesh
While making Christ out to be weak

Men of God, will we stand up and overcome this great disease?
I just want to be free