Rest

I read it somewhere once that if I came to you for rest that
You would cure my weary heart and forgive my heavy debt
Is there a reason why you haven't come to help me yet?
Is there a reason why you want me dead?
I swear my whole life is proof of this bitter concept
But I've done nothing to deserve this treatment that I get
There's no joy in my soul, and the questions I can't answer are left
So God

How do I move on? And make the past disappear?
It's easier said than done after all those years
The faces of the countless girls I've quietly undressed
Leave scars on my heart and images I can't forget
The guilt drives me crazy and it's hard to live
And if that weren't enough, I'm frail and I'm sick
Let alone the fact that you don't respond to me
Your bride pays no attention to the lost that need to see
But if there's anything in this world that haunts my heart
It's the choking grip of worry that is tearing me apart
I'm so uncertain, God, that there's still a plan
Has it run off-course somehow, or is it in your hands?
My doubt has taken over, and apathy blinds my hope
I'm a religiously-founded man with a starving child's soul

God, if you're there anymore, I need you to direct my steps
I need your grace to move on, Jesus, tell me what's next

Wage war against everything that holds you back from me
So light a match and watch it burn
All your dreams and desires
Take up your cross and follow me
I will lead you forever higher

I can't just pretend to be strong when I'm not
I'm too weak to fight this insecurity
But on the outside I'll disguise it with pride
A pride that's founded on the shaky ground of vanity
But you've known the truth from the beginning
I pray right now that you interpret my sincerity
Give me the ability to trust you with it all
I need you here with me

Give (me) us peace
Give (me) us a love that never sleeps
Let (my) our faith be contagious
Take these burdens please, and show (me) us how to finally
Run to you and never look back

The struggles that we face will never cease to exist
No matter how desperately we want simplicity
There will always be excuses and distractions
That keep us from believing in the truth of the cross
And though I'm at my weakest like never before
Though the thought of death may seem more promising than life
Despite my unfaithfulness, despite my shortcomings
You are sovereign, in control, and you live in me
So we must conquer the fear that lives inside of us
We must live and breathe with a strong sense of urgency
The church must be united as one
We must come together and function as one body
We must run to Christ together
Never again will we be alone
The grace of God is so much greater
Than anything we can accomplish on our own