Middle o' nowhere

Well, her dads a child molester so shes scared for her kid, he's ten years old.
And she's a hard workin' mama shes got no regrets for what she's become.
She let me in her house and let me cry on her shoulder.
She said I don't ever get to take care of you no more and by the looks of things no one else will.
Just like me childhood hero im the best at what I do, but im a runner.
If I don't like what I see then im off like a bumblebee in flight.
I cant even stand to see my own face in the mirror.
It hurts to know ill never get to see your face again, although I see it every day in Every word thats ever spoken to me.
Now I'm drinkin and I'm cussin' and my fists are a-swingin at midnight.
In the middle o' nowhere saying "god just let me die just not so slowly" all I ever wanted was to be sane again.
My mind and my body would just rot if I stayed.
I did the best I could took all I could take.
Do you want to know?
If I thought that you did id tell you