Battlefield In My Head

I'm still fighting

It’s been three years since the war stopped outside
But the shots still echo when I try to close my eyes
Can’t trust the silence
It’s louder than bombs—
My brain's a cage
Where the battle lives on
Marching boots in my memory lane
All these medals feel like chains
Flashbacks bleed like open scars
I lost more at home than I did in the dark

You see me breathing—
(But I ain't alive)
You think I'm healed—
(But I'm barely survive)

I fight every night
On the battlefield in my head
Can't bury the dead
They live in what I said
I scream but it echoes inside
Nowhere to hide
I survived the war
But not what's left behind

Therapy don't touch what fire carved in me
These pills are peace, but the dreams disagree
They told me: Welcome home
But it ain't the same street—
It’s a maze of shadows
Where my fears compete
Used to sleep with one eye open
Now both stare at the ceiling
Counting ghosts
Not feelings

I left pieces of me
In places they’ll never find
Now they decorate my pain
And call it: Sacrifice

You see me breathing—
(But I ain't alive)
You think I'm healed—
(But I'm barely survive)

I fight every night
On the battlefield in my head
Can't bury the dead
They live in what I said
I scream but it echoes inside
Nowhere to hide

I fight every night
On the battlefield in my head
Can't bury the dead
They live in what I said
I scream but it echoes inside
Nowhere to hide
I survived the war!
But not what's left behind

I'm still fighting

Fighting