I Can't Hold This

I've been screaming in silence
Crashing in calm
Smile like armor
But inside is a bomb
They scroll through my pain
Like it's part of the show
I bleed behind filters
But no one wants to know
Pressure rising like smoke in my brain
Try to stay sane but the voices remain
Tolerance breaks where ignorance grows
They plant the seeds
And I reap the throes

I tried to breathe
But it’s burning inside
Tried to speak
But they just swipe by

I can’t hold this!
I'm slipping through the cracks
Of a world that claps
While it stabs my back
I can’t hold this!
I'm screaming through the static
Living in the panic
Of a mind too loud to manage

They label the pain but don’t feel the weight
Tell you to smile while you're breaking late
Therapy, pills, and a prayer to forget
But ghosts don’t leave when they're fed regret
Walls closing in
And I play pretend
Another fake laugh
Till I break again

I tried to breathe
But it’s burning inside
Tried to speak
But they just swipe by

I can’t hold this!
I'm slipping through the cracks
Of a world that claps
While it stabs my back
I can’t hold this!
I'm screaming through the static
Living in the panic
Of a mind too loud to manage

No, I'm not okay
I'm just not gone yet
Don’t confuse survival
With peace

I can’t hold this!
I'm slipping through the cracks
Of a world that claps
While it stabs my back
I can’t hold this!
I'm screaming through the static
Living in the panic
Of a mind too loud to manage
I can’t hold this!
I'm slipping through the cracks
Of a world that claps
While it stabs my back
I can’t hold this!
Not one more breath to fake
Let it break, let it shake
‘Cause I can’t—

I can’t take this anymore!!