The Mason

I've held on so long
To what I want
You to become

I see that you are not
Who I dreamed you to be
But that's not your fault

See long ago I made up my mind
She would be the love of my life
But now I see Ignorance is bliss
I fell in love with an idea in my head
But that's not who she is

See I will take a thought
And let it grow
Till underneath it's weight I am caught

When all I saw was a glimpse
Of who you might be
And I laid down these bricks

Building walls so lovely and strong
There's no way, no chance I am wrong
Our castle stands and I know where she'll fit
She'll be with me here in my arms, I'm crazy in love
With who I think she is

When I finally get to see you
I latch onto the hope I see in you
I won't let go, I'll say
"Look there's a chance what I hoped for might actually be so!"
But I cannot justify this
Small suspicion that slowly is creeping in
That the castle walls are shaking
I fight the fact maybe I was mistaken

I hate when I knew
Nothing was real
In all that I had believed to be true

And the walls
Came crumbling down
And all I could think was 'where is all that wasted time now?'

See long ago I made up my mind
She would be the love of my life
Now I see I never really know you one bit
I fell in love with an idea in my head
But that's not who she is