Making You Proud

Tonight I got high again
But I don't have the balls to man up to my own problems
So I walk around pretending
That I'm nothing scant of ordinary
That I'm the kinda guy that can keep secrets from god
But I'm only a coward who taps out when shit gets tough
The fast life ain't easy
And I'm not one who's got it down

I only wanna make you proud
But writings the only way that I know
And maybe I let you down
By choosing a lifestyle thats upside down

But its the same as anything else
Busting your ass to make a name for yourself
Except I only want to do it on big stages
In front of a huge crowd
Thats the kinda high i wanna write about
Yea, thats the kinda high I never want to live without

I only wanna make you proud
But writings the only way that I know
And maybe I let you down
By chosing a lifestyle thats upside down