Law of Conservation of Pain

It's my nature to love something I hate
and the only way to live is to slowly kill myself
Because its harder to survive
Without that inner rotting
And today, it is impossible

It is even more frustrating
that in order to live better
With less self mutilation
It is necessary to subdue others
So no pain is lost

Benightedness is the only way to destroy pain
And ignorance is the only hope to not go insane
And if I could ever go back
I think i would
This comprehension just seems not to
Contain

Meaning or hope

Im still missing out
On my chance
To throw it wipe the blood from your face
And throw it all to you
Cause if i had the chance i know I would
release the load on you
cause if I had the chance I know I would
Give all my pain to you
And I know you would too
you'd fuck me f you could
You'd fuck me really well
And I'd fuck you
And I'd fuck you straight to hell
I'll throw it all to you
You want to
And I want too