KILLING ALCHEMY

I got my heart lost in turmoil
Spirit in a hole
Sinking deeper in the depth
Lower than it goes
Grimy like a fiend
Yea I been cravin' mo'
I put myself in harms way
Because I gotta know
Why you do wrong to me
The pushin' and forth
And when I curse about you
I still don't feel remorse
It's like a thousand knives
Forced into my eyes
Carving out the shape of you
So incandescent

Fuck givin' into what you did
Tryna fool me by demeaning
Everything I've been
Hoe

You should've kept it
At the absence
Know I don't need you
Cause lately I feel like I'm lackin'
My cadence

I'm ruminating
Hesitation
'Cause it's the same cycle
I'm so sick of all the waiting
To burn slow

My back to the wall
A fire in my chest
I feel it ripping through my flesh
Leave me restless
Ain't no coming back
This is forever

You got a stronghold
With no chance to break
Killing alchemy
What you doin' to me?

Get out of my head
All that talk is cheap
Nevermore to be
Nothing more to me

And I should know how
When I'm with company
All the misery
Drives me wickedly

I ain't myself
Cause you took a toll on me

Killing alchemy
Killing alchemy

Do you know the animosity
You think I show
Do you know the reason
Why I'll never let it go

Good riddance
Knock off the dust
Abrasive
I need to clear my mind
X it off
Just as I face 'em

And thank you for the venom
But I'd rather use my own
Ain't no need for all the dealing
I'll destroy myself alone
Pessimistic

Mindfucked
So sadistic
Cause every fuckin' thought I form
It's got me feelin' twisted
Demented

Of my volition
I'm missin'
The part of me
That never felt like someone was suspicious
I'm faithless

Don't have discretion
For no one
Cause everyone around me
Is a factor of the build up
Destruction

If I explode I'll make
As a statement
But you don't get to walk away
Because I'm fuckin' caving
That's bullshit
I'll see you in hell motherfucker

You got a stronghold
With no chance to break
Killing alchemy
What you doin' to me?

Get out of my head
All that talk is cheap
Nevermore to be
Nothing more to me

And I
Should know how
When I'm with company
All the misery
Drives me wickedly

I ain't myself
Cause you took a toll on me

Killing alchemy
Killing alchemy

Conflicted by detriment
Why the fuck would you
Watch me living in turmoil

This animosity
I wonder if you ever face
Your pain alone

Conflicted by detriment
Why the fuck would you do
What you never would tell

So every day I hope
That I'll see you in hell motherfucker

Oh

You got a stronghold
With no chance to break

I'll live in agony
And see you in hell