Nicotine

Two lies, back to back
Two years, now it’s past
Two fears, come to pass
Too near, this can’t last

Broken glass is covering the floor now
The bottles I poured out
Tried to purge myself of everything about you
But when you always show up on my doorstep

Choking on your every word
Your every desire
While I gasp for air
You just stand and stare
Choking on you like nicotine
My lungs are on fire
But I won’t die today
Cuz you will kill me slowly

I don’t wanna feel like something’s wrong
(But something is)
I don’t wanna blindly just move on
(But you know you will)

When I’m wasting daylight
Sleeping on the west side
Maybe I can stop time
I (know, know that you, know that you won’t)
I know that I can’t seem to move on
(Don’t move on, don’t move on, don’t move on)
And free myself from you

Choking on your every word
Your every desire
While I gasp for air
You just stand and stare
Choking on you like nicotine
My lungs are on fire
But I won’t die today
Cuz you will kill me slowly

Words are creeping in they’re not mine
(You will do what I say)
Maybe I am losing my mind
(You will do what I think)
Maybe I am hanging by your strings
(You’re gonna move with me)
I (you are alone with me)
I know that I can’t seem to move on
(Don’t move on, don’t move on, don’t move on)
And free myself from you