Half As Fun

If you smile
I will never know if that's for real
I will never understand your ways
Doubt you know how it feels

Pay the blind
There is nothing I can do to hide
I ain't got a clue what's on your mind
And I'm still paralyzed

And if you should ever call my bluff
I'll convince myself
It's all about luck

Tell me why
I should ever dare to speak my mind
When it's easier to pretend
I'm half as fun as everyone

Not confessing how I feel
It's just that all about you give me thrills
And if you don't mind
I guess I'll keep it to myself

You have all
I could have wished for
Still
I never thought I'd miss it all

I'm still losing in this game
All I have is on display
You can tell it by my face
I'm still losing in this game
My dear