Burial

Opening my eyes and seeing nothing, total darkness
Trying to move, but the walls surround me, no space left
Hard to breathe, inhaling my exhalations, airless
I hear laughter between shovelfuls, from above

Now I realize where I am
Stay calm, avoid claustrophobia
Don't remember what happened
Why am I prisoner of this shell?

Pushing with all my might for nothing
Yelling with all my might for nothing
Scratching till it bleeds for nothing
Smashing till it hurts for nothing

Is it my reward for a life of misery?
Am I chastised for living this long?
Cannot pray without faith
Anyway, faith won't save me

Being the cavy, a foolish experience
The scapegoat of human absurdity
The convict of the merciless
The object of a silly jest

Pushing with all my might for nothing
Yelling with all my might for nothing
Scratching till it bleeds for nothing
Smashing till it hurts for nothing

Mourning your burial
Don't wanna pass out from asphyxia
Living your burial
Better precipitate the end
Mourning your burial
By self-mutilation
Don't wanna wait till I pass away