I Lie

I guess you caught me at a bad time
I was almost out of sight and now
You just remind me of all the things that I don't have

Avoiding your gaze
I repeat your questions to find the answers
My hair is falling, covering my eyes

There is a distance in our words
A gap that hurts
My head is spinning, I feel like another as I try

But I lie
I lie
I lie
To you

I don't need you to worry
Don't want to hear your words of wisdom
Ashamed but I envy you too much

You have found what you wanted
But I found a crack inside my heart
You see right through me
Please let me be

Let me lie
I lie
To you
I lie

Bite my lips to keep from crying
As I ask about your day
Going through the motions saying I'm ok

I'm defensive, filled with anger
Filled with what I'm keeping inside
Although I know you only want the best for me

I lie
I lie
To you

I hope tomorrow might feel like
A hundred years later