Everything Alone

I'm always lonely on crowded holidays with your family
I'm wilted flowers drying by the window pane
Bumming everyone out
Throw me away

We left the party separate ways
Cause i'm married to the music and my stupid dreams
Twelve calendars in flames, but you can't stay
You got tired of waiting around for me

We'll say it's better this way

But if i'm being honest it's a bust
Smoking cigarettes alone
Instead of doing nothing with you
Smoking cigarettes alone
Instead of doing nothing with you

I'm difficult, exhausted
Always chasing half baked plans
Flying through the sky like a saucer
Darting light speed through each misfired synapse

You deserve a good life
With someone who can make it home for dinner
Order takeout food and hang out on the couch all night
But i'm a disappearing act, i wander and take flight

We'll say it's better this way

But if i'm being honest it's a bust
Drinking white claws alone
Instead of watching tv with you
And if i'm being honest it's a bust
Doing everything alone

Instead of doing nothing with you
Instead of doing nothing with you
Instead of doing nothing with you
Instead of doing nothing with you
Instead of doing nothing with you