i want a lobotomy (feat. Kasane Teto)

I wanna get rid of these feelings, please
I wanna lie in bed and never leave
I never wanna wake up, wanna stay asleep
Don't wanna fucking be here, I don't wanna be me

I wanna get violent
No phone dialing
No psychiatrist, no stupid fucking therapist
Yeah, I'm a nihilist
I'm not a damn survivalist
Don't wanna hear your crying, man
I wanna fucking die like this
I can't keep lying
I don't mean to be so frightening
But lately I've been spiraling
Existing is so tiring
So no more trying, no more hiding, no more fear intensifying
Don't act like you care when I'm dead, bitch
I've already been dying

I wanna get rid of these feelings, please
I wanna lie in bed and never leave
I never wanna wake up, wanna stay asleep
Don't wanna fucking be here, I don't wanna be me