Lacking

Edging away from the precipice
Shaking off shackles that connect me to the past
Reaching out for hands that brush my fingers
Lacking the momentum to escape

Why was it so hard
To deviate from this destructive behaviour?

Humbled by the empathy of others
Patience, so much greater than mine
Avoiding the crux of the problem
Blinded by my fear of the unknown
Desperate to get back to the trail

I keep on grinning
Keep on grinning
Keep on grinning
I’ve come too far to fail
I move ahead and
Keep on grinning

Keep on grinning
Something’s got to give
I’ve reached the bottom
Of the barrel
I’ll keep my head and
It might be time to leave you

Emotional but open to reason
Unable to change this on my own
Incapable and all out of energy
Yes, I’m sceptical
But to doubt is my nature

I’m over the worst of
This torrid experience
Worn out and resigned
Open to your influence
Guide me to the exit
Be my salvation

It’s far from over
It’s far from over

I won’t lose control
Must have control
Will take control
Won’t stop and

I won’t lose control
Must have control
Will take control
Won’t stop and

I won’t lose control
Must have control
Will take control
Won’t stop and

I won’t lose control
Must have control
Will take control
Won’t stop and

I won’t lose control
Must have control
Will take control
Will take it all

Change is on the horizon
Change is on the horizon
I’ll take it back