Something I Could Never Be (feat. Tony Ann)

I wish I could be normal but what does that even mean?
I wish I could be smaller, taller and everything in between
I wish I could be patient, ‘cause they say that it’s a virtue
But I just want a quick fix, trade me in for someone new

‘Cause it all seems perfect in my dreams
But when I wake up I'm still me

Does anybody have it all?
Can anybody set me free?
When the midnight falls, I turn myself on me
It hits me like a drop of ink, clouding everything I see
But if I'm being honest
All I ever wanted was something I could never be (Mhm)

Back when I was younger, doubt knocked at my door
Asked me if I'm worthy and filled my head with words
Like shouldn’t I be stronger and that boys shouldn’t cry
If beauty’s for beholders, could you lend me your eyes?

‘Cause it all seems perfect in my dreams
But when I wake up I'm still me

Does anybody have it all?
Can anybody set me free?
When the midnight falls, I turn myself on me
It hits me like a drop of ink, clouding everything I see
But if I'm being honest
All I ever wanted

Is to be okay not being okay
Maybe it’s right to go the wrong way
Imperfection is just perception

‘Cause no one really has it all
Nobody can set me free
When the midnight falls, I won’t turn on me
I'm setting fire to the dark, lighting up the truth at heart
Finally, I'm honest, there’s no love in wanting
Something I could never be

(Mhm) Something I could never be
(Mhm) Something I could never be
(Mhm) Something I could never be, mm-hmm