Stranger

One day at a time, I wander the lonely road
The path I love the most
I’ll stay for the night, but this place is not my home
Retract the words I spoke

And now I’ve fallen back into the dark where I began
A twisted tunnel where I know I’ll never see the end
Searching for comfort but I’m sure I’ll never love again
Familiar struggle of a soul who ventures to the edge

I can’t believe I ever thought that I was over this
When all this time I kept the venom deep within my skin
Demons of old leaving me cold, but still I let them in
It takes a toll I can’t control with any medicine

Followed the course, so why am I still filled with doubt?
All of the progress that I made escapes me now
Tried to convince myself I’m fine, I don’t know how
Can’t get the troubled thoughts to die, they’ve grown too loud

And now I’ve fallen back into the dark where I began
A twisted tunnel where I know I’ll never see the end
Searching for comfort but I’m sure I’ll never love again
Familiar struggle of a soul who ventures to the edge

I can’t believe I ever thought that I was over this
When all this time I kept the venom deep within my skin
Demons of old leaving me cold, but I still them in
It takes a toll I can’t control with any medicine

I’ve gone too far

It’s not fair, my dreams could never bring me peace
These nightmares are rooted in reality
You’ve found God, but I need solace I can see
It’s all wrong, the words you taught me to believe

Sadness and anger as I tumble into the abyss
Never a stranger, you return with your malevolence
A siren song that beckons me over the precipice
One that grows stronger when I make believe you don’t exist

I can’t believe I ever thought that I was over this
When all this time I kept the venom deep within my skin
Demons of old leaving me cold, but I still let them in
It takes a toll I can’t control with any medicine
No, I’m not over this