Thanks a Lot

Find me in the next life
Until then I won't let you in
I trust what exists: Life

I tried
I called for a sign
To bring me to life
But all I managed to find
Were fools in paradise

And now I struggle to see in color
Carry my burdens with no ignorant bliss
Avoiding problems under the covers
But time won't stand still while I hide in my room

Without a purpose, why do I bother?
Scraping the bottom for reasons to exist
I hold my head down under the water
So that I may find this supposed white light

Slowly, I've come to realize I can only count on what I know and
Knowing without uncertainty eludes me as I wander through this life

If there's a reason for this existence, somebody tell me why
I know the world will just keep on spinning whether I live or die
One choice could end this forever, or at least in my mind
But my voice and yours heard together could shed a different light

Myths and legends (they're not real, though I feel afraid)
Fool us again (I tried to, I want to believe)
Thirst for knowledge (it takes me, it breaks me again)
Gives no solace (that I can find)