I Dont Even Know Myself

How do I grow so fast in this dark world?
Everything I've worked with down the drain
Is this what I'm meant for ya?
I'm shaking every time we talk

I'm quaking, just can't seem to stop
Away from all the mistakes that create wars
With the people I don't know
And they say

I'm falling
I'm falling just to give you help
I'm crawling
I don't even know myself
Who was I in my past life?

Did I not or did I lie?
Did I lie one too many times?
Who am I?
Who am I in this made up world?

Do I even have a purpose?
Underneath the rising surface
I stay here, I stay here
Being 18 is all I wanted
But now it just seems so wrong
Ooh

It seems so wrong
I'm falling
I'm falling just to give you help
I'm crawling
I don't even know myself