Hard to believe (translation)

It's hard to believe, there was nothing I could do
I wanted to tell you, I'll remember you forever.
God sent you down, there was nothing I could do
I wanted to tell you, I'll remember you forever

Are the raindrops outside similar to my feelings?
The weather washes over and she smiles up at me from the picture.
I think about her, who's left me.
Though I can't understand why she's left.

I imagine dangerous things, but they're not true
There's too much longing for it to come true.
I dream of a happy family but I doesn't work
I become a little depressed.

My mistakes can't be cleaned away, she won't accept me.
This blind hate consumes me. I hate this society for the way it's made me.
I want to erase my past. This fistful of uneasiness grows.
In the end I decide revenge upon myself. Forgive me, this is all I can do.
Slowly I walk deeper and deeper into the darkness within.
Oh God, please forgive me.

God bless It's hard to believe, there was nothing I could do
I wanted to tell you, I'll remember you forever
God sent you down, there was nothing I could do
I wanted to tell you, I'll remember you forever

My eyes unfocus and my consciousness slowly fades
My squirming is no use
My reliance is taken away to a sluggish path.
This solitude grows inside of me and the pain and hate runs deep.
I wish that the rain would wash away these things with it.
I can't stop myself, I've gone insane, there's no hope in my life.
It's true, I don't have any dreams, any hope.
As time passes animosity and betrayal grow stronger.
My heartbeat is cold, I think I might stop breathing.
Save me so that I might awaken from this darkness.
I don't know who I am anymore
Living in this foul smell is okay
In a few minutes it'll be comfortable, I haven't drugged you.
So it'll be over soon. Just wait a little more, then I'll be...

It's hard to believe, there was nothing I could do
I wanted to tell you, I'll remember you forever.
God sent you down, there was nothing I could do
I wanted to tell you, I'll remember you forever

Even if the world says it'll end I'm yours forever.
Even if I scream a hundred times, there's not echo.
Even if my breath runs dry, I'll promise you I'm yours.
The rest of my days are for you, rest in peace yo!

It's hard to believe, there was nothing I could do
I wanted to tell you, I'll remember you forever.
God sent you down, there was nothing I could do
I wanted to tell you, I'll love you forever