In My Arms

A double line on the bathroom floor
A kind of joy I'd never felt before
I had so many plans for you
The kind of news you never want to hear
The doctors say that you won't make it here
I had so many plans for you

Nothing prepares, nothing prepares you for this
And I didn't know that I could hurt like this

How could something so small
Leave such a big scar
Is it selfish of me now
To wish I'd never felt this pain
Didn't even know your name
So I'll hold you in my heart
Even though I should be
Holding you in my arms

A quiet drive on the way back home
There's no words that can fill this hole
I had so many plans for you
There's pretty flowers showing at our door
Wish you could see how you were already adored
I had so many plans for you

Nothing prepares, nothing prepares you for this
And I didn't know that I could hurt like this
How could something so small
Leave such a big scar
Is it selfish of me now
To wish I'd never felt this pain
Didn't even know your name
So I'll hold you in my heart
Even though I should be
Holding you in my arms

Nothing prepared, nothing prepared me for this
God I didn't know that I could hurt like this
How could something so small
Leave such a big scar
Oh please Heaven help me now
I know there's purpose in the pain
And God knows your name
So I'll hold you in my heart
Even though I wish
You were right here in my arms